Thursday, August 01, 2019

FANGANNIVERSARY

So...
17 yes ago I was in Budapest at the Pepsi Sziget festival, it was 2002, and I saw The 69Eyes  live for the first time.
I remember the one song which touched my heart, it was Sleeping with lions.
Well, there, on that song, I got my first bite...

The video I decided to put, to remember this day, is Brandon Lee, because I feel this song very near to my heart as well, and it is Tammerfest 2002. Probably was some days before or after Budapest....


Happy Fanganniversary Vampire! 🦇🦇🦇🦇


Thursday, July 25, 2019

PINBALL GAMER

The sun is shining warmly
everybody is laughing
on the shore of the lake
I see my pattern and smile as well,
just one direction in my thoughts.
I was the runner and now I am on the run
Feeling I am going nowhere
but still running.
Love could be magic
and sometimes start as a pinball game.
You are the plunger
and like a crazy ball I strike on the playfield
hitting every corner and bumper.
Skilled players know how to manipulate the game
in order to direct the ball towards a certain path.
Now,
I hope you know how to keep the game going
because I don't want to end as a game over.
Patience is not one of my virtues
and you are in my mind
no matter where I go or stay
So,
I dream my time away
we are together
wishful thinking I guess
but now I feel the warm on me.
Strike, hit and tilt
you won this game long ago.
Did you know?

© Diana Mistera  July 27 2019







Saturday, July 06, 2019

FAREWELL

I carry all your secrets under my skin
and seal everything with this my last kiss.
The air around me still feels like a cage
and I feel I cannot breathe
my heart beat so fast that echoed in my hears
it was just yesterday I told you my farwell.
Now I feel empty and confuse
but I cannot cry, and I don't know why.
Maybe because although was a closure
it was yet again beautiful
like the first time when everything started.
How a farewell can feel beautyful?
Maybe because it wasn't a farewell after all.
I love you enough to let you go
but you cannot actually walk away from someone
if your soul had decided to stay
so I run away before you know
wearing my smile as better as I could
while deep inside I was at war with my feelings.
I let you at your fate
and break myself on the way
you gave me up to play safe
leaving me on my own
hanging on a hope.
Angels lie to keep control
but I am not an angel after all
and if you still care
don't ever let me know.

© Diana Mistera 2019





Tuesday, June 04, 2019

ANNOUNCEMENT

Hello my friends

It took me some time to write this post.

As many knows my books  ORPHEUS, the awakeming ,Orpheus saga vol.1 and IL DEMONE DELLO SPECCHIO, the Unleashing, Orpheus saga vol.2 were published by the Italian publisher LETTERE ANIMATE, which has announced, will close in May 2020.

We were given options, but I have decided to retrieve all the copyrights back, so, the books are not anymore available in any format, in any bookstore and selling sites.

They will comeback to life some point, also because is a trilogy and the third chapter hasn't been published yet. There will be changes, because I will surely made another edition and publish them as self publisher.

It has been an hard journey because I wasn't content at all with the publisher and I would have retrieve anyway this year the copyrights and cut my contract with them, so it was something that was going to happen. There has not been promotion in any way, and my books and many others were like forgotten , selling was difficult, because there was not support at all from Lettere Animate.

So...we learn by our own mistakes, and I've learned that my books deserves better, also if this mean go back to self publishing.

Well, it went like it went, I thank you all whose bought the books and has left me reviews, and also those that have red them without comment, I hope you have enjoyed.

My journey continue, in different paths, I am working at 2 new  books , but I cannot say when I will publish them and how, but I am still writing.

Keep read me here and on my other channels , I will update when will be news, and anyway I am still composing poems. 😊

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Sunday, June 02, 2019

AND THE FIRE WITHIN


I have no face
I have no name
I am just a passer by
walking on the fire
with my soul in flames
Dreams never die
your eyes sent me a story
I couldn't ignore
But I am not an hunter
Your love is what I desire
it is it
that burning my soul now.

©Diana Mistera 02.06.2019




Tuesday, May 28, 2019

DIAMONDS AND RUST

Well...
Is a grey rainy day and I am pondering things...and I am looking for a clearance...and also a closure somehow.
You know, I am in a path in which I am finding out my connections with the Universe.
Has been a year or so that I am digging within myself, growing, seeding and I start now to really see fruits of what I have seeded, and they are far away of what I have expected.
This is the point.
We always expect something, we concentrate in those expectations that we can't see the path changing; and we are disappointed because things didn't went like your expectations were, and take some time and lot of energy, to understand that the path meant for you was there, has been there all the time, or you think so...you hope this time you are in the right one, because only the idea to find yourself in the same wrong path scared you more than hell itself, and of course...unsureness is walking just beside you.

There was a particular situation which took me away a bit, and took more to understand that I was completely wrong, paths and patterns, emotions I wanted to feel so much that I  believed my own illusions until the facts, the reality, struck me right on my face, and I fell apart, but maybe also this was meant to go like this. I am a poet and a writer, often pain is the the nourishment of what I write.
I am a dreamer, always have been and always will be and this is what often put me in troubles; but there is always a lesson, you think the Universe bring to you that lesson, and say loud "oh yes that was is that was the Universe" well maybe, but mainly you bring pain and disappointments to yourself. The Universe just show it to you.  I have learned it and learning it, not in an easy way...but this is how it works, is it?
And here comes the lesson, those  for me were just diamonds and rust and the reason because today I feel this song in a way that I have never felt before, is just this, and he...he was the ghost...
In this new path there is no ghost, you are not a ghost...you have never been, you have always watching in silent, knowing maybe that at one point I will understand, well if it is so; you have to have had in me a big faith, more than what I had in myself... but it is again another IF, so I am not going there now, not again.
So I say to you,  " I love you dearly, but if you'll offering me diamonds and rust, I don't want them anymore. I have already paid";   like the song said, and that was what I have to understand.

So Today I have found myself in this. Some time ago I would have called it coincidence, but not today.
We continue to call them coincidences, when something happen or you noticed in a particular moment, for example when you are going through something which is changing you deeply, better hopefully, and that particular song appear somehow in a channel that you are following;  you then decide to listen it again, go to pay attention at the words because the song this time makes you cry and shivered. You have listen it before without having this side effects. You read then carefully and realize you are just on that situation described by the lyrics...although the moon is going dark, and it is just when she is dark that show you her powers...
Well...the reality is that those are signs of how powerful  and strong we can be, although everything seems falling apart,  if only we pay more attention at what surrounded us, maybe we won't have to bare so much pain all the time, but ...the most important lessons comes from the pain and the disillusion.


I'll be damned, here comes your ghost again
But that's not unusual
It's just that the moon is full
And you decided to call
And here I sit, hand on the telephone
Hearing the voice I'd known
A couple of light years ago
Heading straight for a fall
But we both know what memories can bring
They bring diamonds and rust
Yes we both know what memories can bring
They bring diamonds and rust
Now I see you standing all around and snow in your hair
Now we're smiling out the window of the crummy hotel over Washington Square
Our breath comes on white clouds, mingles and hangs in the air
Speaking strictly for me, we both could've died then and there
Now you're telling me you're not nostalgic
Then give me another word for it
You were so good with words
And at keeping things vague
'Cause I need some of that vagueness now
It's all come back too clearly
Yes, I love you dearly
And if you're offering me diamonds and rust, I've already paid
But we both know what memories can bring
They bring diamonds and rust
Yes we both know what memories can bring
They bring diamonds and rust
Diamonds, diamonds and rust
Diamonds, diamonds and rust
Diamonds, diamonds and rust
Don't want no more diamonds, diamonds and rust

Songwriters: BAEZ JOAN C


Monday, May 13, 2019

I want to believe that is not my obsession
which flows where only desires dare.
My brain is burning
my defenses are down
and I feel vulnerable
afraid that everything will vanished
in the very moment I will say the words.
I cannot bare anymore the pain
I don't know what to do
confusion has put its roots in me
questioning everything that I have believed in.
The dreams once were my shelter
now they are delusions in disguised
filling me with scares and  scars
leading me astray.
Don't give up on me
my heart is heavy
but  you'll find my love there for sure
make me believe again
and I will love you endlessly.

© Diana Mistera 13.5.2019