THE SAVAGE GARDEN

 I was sitting in a garden. It was a peaceful place from where I could see the old Santa Maria dei Servi Church, listening to music, I had found that place just for a chance, and I didn't even know if I was allowed to sit there. It wasn't a private space, no signs were there, it was a garden, quite a savage one, but still felt like home.

One day I was all in my thoughts, maybe I was in a way, praying, asking to whoever was listening, why I couldn't find the love that my soul was so desperately looking for. That kind of deep, true, to live  and die for. The kind that I know existed; I had it somewhere along the line of the time, in every of my lives. The soul never forget, she just get blurred along the way.

18 years later I  still remember that silent prayer, wondering who was listening; and...

Just like this, when I met you the first time

I felt that love

I didn't know what to do with it

I felt scared, in disbelief,

but at the same time blessed, 

overwhelmed

wishing, 

to hear your heartbeat

Feel you.

Come closer to you

Fall asleep peacefully and safe in your arms

remebering...

Hold you, day and night

Knowing...

wake up and see you at my side

We have it all.

I really want you and I wonder

Was the heaven that sent you to me

or  did you escape from Hell?

Angels had fallen for love, once

and I don't really care now from where 

and whom

as long as you will be mine

I only care about the when...

© Diana Mistera 02.06.21

THE HOLLOW

 I've should have known better 

how to stop tearing myself apart 

I've done already so many times

and still haven't learned my lesson.

I fell again, in the same old trap

it had a different outfit but the core was the same.

Everyone is the perfect architect of their own illusions

and I was so good in building it so real 

that I end up to believed to be true.

Now, I feel like a shadow doomed, 

my love, forever in the dark

until I will not feel it anymore 

because, you know,

you get used to the void

it eventually becomes a part of who you are.

©Diana Mistera 2021

FALLING

I feel my wings burn feather after feather, 

bleeding.

I was the light once and now the darkness surrounds me.

I must be one of those that fell.

Did they wonder if and when they will touch the ground?

Did they hope to be caught by lovable arms?

Have they been in my same storm? 

Did they see their memories fading, whirling?

Did they feel the pain of falling from grace?

Promises and dreams shattered

hopes so long gone?

The endless haze surrounds me 

so I close my eyes

while tears keep ascending, 

silver strings heading the skies 

and I keep surrendering, changing

and yet falling.

I long for you, for your embrace,  

I long for your touch,

but I know I need to fall alone in this void.

© Diana Mistera 26.4.2021

3 CYCLES OF 3s

My dreams 3 cycles of 3 

within 3 months

3 dreams, cycles of 3

within 3 weeks

3 dreams cycles of 3

in a day

we are moving faster

and 8 is the number of times of 3s together.

My soul is longing for yours

I am a Cosmic Rider in the Universe

memories gathering

past present and future

I keep on trying, digging, 

resting, dying in flames

The cycles of life of a Phoenix

whose had risen from her ashes so many times

and keep on burning to death to born again

you are the fire that I will never tame.

Around the Universe and back

two souls are one.

I know you are holding back

so I will take it easy

we'll have a chance I know

I have loved you lifetimes

Keep on falling in love with you again and again.

You are the one and only

I can't let go, it feels so lonely

please tell me you will be there day and night

I do, you know I will

Why? Was your question,

because I love you, is and will be always

my answer.

© Diana Mistera 2021

STAY

Morning was slow and grey

Feelings from yesterday find their way always

rooting in the ground

            Seeds

A simple thought, just a little thing

grounding, manifesting.

I need you here,

I want you near 

Two shadows never apart from each other 

            feeling you coming closer

baby steps

always forward

Today more than yesterday

You are coming closer.

I am leaving the space, 

receiving,

welcoming.

        Today more than yesterday I want you here to stay, my beloved

Flowing

                loving you

forever

I have been, 

be and will be

            yours.

©Diana Mistera 21.03.21