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Every night I was looking at the moon

and talk to her wishing my soul will find finally its double

and the immense feeling of loneliness

was washed away.

Somewhere you were waiting to hold me,

looking at the same moon

wishing the same and the tears went dry

I held on to that little sparkle of hope

and the fullmoon cuddled me with its soft wind.

I remeber the dream where we held each other hands

and you told me

“don't look back or everything will vanished”

I believed you but the fear was bigger

I looked and you vanished away

no one of my screams was heard

but I've lost everything and my moon went black.

So I started to look at the stars.

I remember the walk I used to take to the hill,

I ran at the higher point

thinking I was nearer to the sky

wishing at the shooting stars,

thinking the sky was crying with me

Knowing you were doing the same somewhere

with no memory of me in any way.
I hope your wishes came true
because mine, betrayed me.

I am still waiting to hold you.

Now our sky is the same

the stars are gone in those summer nights

which never are dark.

I saw you

not a dream anymore

but still not mine.

I succombed at the fear

and now I have been punished

to be only a shadow in your dreams.

I still love you and always will

and you still don't know I exist.

It's easier to live alone

than fear that dream will never comeback.

If only I haven't look behind.

© Diana Mistera 29.7.2015