MASK

I look furtively at you

Trying to shut down the beat of my heart

too loud on my ears.

I wonder if you can feel my eyes on you....

and your eyes met mine for a moment

You are still beautiful

although time have left its mark

around your eyes too.

I turn my head away.

I would like to talk to you

come near and ask ”don't you remember me?”

but I am shy

or is it the fear for the answer?

So, I just look at you silently

sipping my coffee

when you are unaware.

You smile and talk with others.

My soul shatters in front of that smile

reminding me

I still bleed for you

from those my beloved scars

which I have never wanted to be healed.

My heart, now out of control

my breath shortened

and all what you see

is maybe a woman

that look too proud
while my soul screams I love you.

I have built this mask for so many years

and yet

I would like to die with you any night

under the jealous moon.

I wish you could see me through...

At that thought a teardrop fall

but you didn't see it

I have ran away before my mask fell in pieces.

© Diana Mistera 14.2.2016